:3

I know ive been gone for so long. But it's something wrong with my internet when i search after buzznet, we have a virus thing that protects our computer from virus, and i cannot logg into buzznet because of that. So ive been trying to logg in from school and it works, but its not that often i do that. So im not gonna be here that much, and im kinda upset about that. I really love buzznet, all the people are so nice here and i love all the fans!

So i'll be back soon!

:)

xoxo:Sam 

Going to see New Moon soon with my best friend Merci. It´s premiere here in Sweden today :)

Only 2 hours left!

Wiho!

So excited, finaly im going to see Jacob!

xD

"Hannah, get over here" He was looking at me and gave me his hand. I took it and he quickly pulled me up, I was like a light feather to him. I stood behind him, I tried to correct my broken dress.

"How dare you jump a lady?" Anthony said with a dark voice.

I´ve found the two actors that are PERFECT for the characters.

The actress i found for Hannah is Charlotte Sullivan, i saw a movie that is called Population 436, saw it today, and i saw her in the movie, and i was like, she´s perfect.. O.o

Im done with chapter 3 now, and my friend is translating it to English, so its gotta be done soon. And ive already written like 7 pages on chapter 4, but im not quite done yet, so its gonna take some time, and i also have to translate it :)

I first thought Christina Ricci would be awesome as her, but Charlotte is the Hannah i was looking for!

 

Then i found my Anthony, Kevin Zegers, saw a movie called a Boy girl thing, then this other day i was thinking about the character Anthony in my book, who would be the actor for him, and ta daa i found Kevin from no where.

The good thing about the actors are not that huge huge like johnny depp or brad pitt.

 

 

Im happy with my choise, what do you think of them?

As i have said like a million times, im writting a book, called yes Cannibal Hannah. And im thinking of everything! How the movie will be, that´s why i picture it as a movie insted of a book, its much easier that way. So i wanted to work out a soundtrack if my book ever becomes a movie. Here is some choises to the songs for the movie.

 

I never told you what i do for a living - My Chemical Romance

It´s not a fashion statement its a deatwish - My Chemical Romance

actually that song (Fashion statement) id like to hear it  in the end of the movie, you´ll understand if you read my book, well its not finish yet, a long way to go.

Scream - Avenged Sevenfold.

Know your enemy - Green Day.

Bleed Well - HIM

I didn´t come up with other songs yet, because i take the songs that reminds me of the book.

example: I never told you what i do for a living,  the people that Hannah knows doesnt know her secret, what she does for a living, so i thought the song would be perfect for it ^^

 

Never

 

I´ve ever unliked a book character this much as i unlike Bella Swan.

What the hell is she thinking about, yeah Edward.

Edward

Edward

and

Edward.

 

I understand that she is in "love" and stuff, but its getting kinda annoying.

Edward is sparkling, dazzling, he´s eyes like gold, he is so pale and cold.

 

Okay we understand Edward is hawt and then again hawt. But that´s not the only thing i hate about Bella.

1. Charlie is so right in Eclipse, that she shouldnt forget about her friends just because she is with Edward.

 

She is with her friends, suddenly she falls in love with Edward and don´t give a damn about her friends, then suddenly he leaves her all alone in Forks. She goes back to her friends, they take her back atleast few of them. Then tadaaa Edward is back and yet she don´t give a shit about her friends, what an USER!

 

That´s what i unlike in some persons, how they use somebody, ive been through that, its why i hate it.

 

And Jacob, why?! Jacob don´t deserve that shit, its not he´s fault, he is fighting for the girl he loves, and Bella she is giving him other thoughts, why can´t she just say.

- Sorry jacob i really love Edward, can´t we be friends.

 

insted of acting like that, now knowing what to say, how to do, she is letting him touch her and everything, doesnt she have her own mind...

 

I feel sorry for Edward and Jacob, can´t they kill Bella and get married as a gay couple, that would be much better xD

 

But still, stuck with Bella like that, im happy that Jacob finds someone, and i actually start to like Bella in the last book. Good for her, if i knew her in person i would kick her ass. But she makes an cool vampire, hope Rosalie can teach her som manors.

 

Well that´s all from me, feels good to say my oponions :)

 

 

Twilight Still rocks!

 

Go jacob!

Go Emmett! <3

My Chemical Romance

 

 

I really like the 3 new songs from their new album.

"Drugs"

"kiss the rain"

and my favorite wich doesnt have any name yet.

There is also two more songs that i haven´t heard, not you guys either i suppose.

It´s "Death before Disco" wich is a really awesome song too dance to. (Gerard said so)

And "Born to run" wich Gerard said was the best song he ever written.

So excited to hear it :)

The songs ive already heard sound so Punk, and i know their new album will be a sucess.

Well that´s all from me :3

xoxo: Sam

Happy B-day

Ray

on you´r 32th b-day

 

(Ray What the fuck?) xD

 

 

Hope you keep rocking many years further, you´re awesome man! Never forget the fro!

Going to see Harry Potter premiere july the 15th that means this Wednesday!

Going to see it with my best buddie Simmie (Simon)

Im So excited for it, the trailer looks awesome the way i actually imagined it. I hope the whole movies is like the book, well movies can never be better then the books, but i hope its better then the other HP movies.

 

^^

 

xoxo: Sandra

About Me :)

U S E L E S S | I N F O R M A T I O N 
Name: Sandra 
Single or taken: Single, im gonna be a nunn. :P
Sex: Giiirl
Birthday: November 11th 
Sign: Scorpio 
Siblings: 4 brothers 3 sisters 
Hair color: Red, dyed it red a couple of days ago ^^
Eye color: blue/gtey
Height: 1.57cm i know im so short, frank is taller then me, damit xD

R E L A T I O N S H I P S 
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: straight
Who are your best friends?: Merci, Anki, Nikolina, Jennifer, Linus, Diyar 
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nooo O_o
What is your longest relationship?: Havent had anyone yet, :(

F A S H I O N | S T U F F 
Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes: H&M :D
Any tattoos or piercings: ears
What is your most comfortable outfit?: Jeans, band-tshirt, hodie, converse. 
What do you usually wear?: Jeans or chinos, t-shirt or shirts, converse or some sneakers. 

S P E C I F I C S 
Do you do drugs? Never
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Elvital 
What are you most scared of?: Butterflies, highs! 
What are you listening to right now: Nothing, the tv. 
Who is the last person that you called?: My mom i think.
Who is the last person that called you?: My sister, Maritza 
Where do you want to get married?: I dont know.
What would you change about yourself?: I don´t know, there is alot of things about me that i unlike,
 but somehow i cant decide, it was god who created me this way. 

F A V O R I T E S 
Colors: Green, red, purple.
Foods: Smashed potatoes, (Home made!) I like sandwiches :P
Movies: Donnie Darko, Silver-fang, Weed, Tenacious D the pick of destiny, Sweeney Todd, and all marvel movies.
 I love Xmen!
Animals: probably kittens, and dogs.

H A V E | Y O U | E V E R 
Given anyone a bath?: Yes :3 
Smoked?: Yes, long time ago when i was younger, i so regret that, but it only lasted 2 days, 
it may have happened that i maybe tried sometime, but never really smoked. 
Bungee jumped?: No, im terrified of hights O.o
Made yourself throw up?: Yes, well i have a explonation, and i didnt throw up really
, i was sick and i had such stomack pain so i had to throw up. 
Skinny dipped?: No 
Ever been in love?: Yes, just once. 
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: No
Pictured your crush naked?: Yes :P xD
Actually seen your crush naked?: No   O.o
Cried when someone died?: Yes of course, i cry to cartoons to even if someone dies. 
Lied: yes
Fallen for your best friend?: Yes, it was my first crush. 
Rejected someone?: Yeah 
Used someone?: no
Done something you regret?: yes

C U R R E N T 
Clothes: shorts, t-shirt 
Music: Nothing right now
Annoyance: hm nothing 
CD in player: My cd player is broken :S 
DVD in player: Knowing i think. 

L A S T | P E R S O N 
You left a message for: i have no money on my cell phone,
so i cant leave any messages or had left any messages at the moment xD
You texted: no one, im completly alone O.o
You cuddled with: My dog ^^
You kissed: No one, i just got a kiss on the check like 6 months ago :s xD

A R E | Y O U 
Understanding: Yes, i listen to everyone and i understan, i usualy help my friends. 
Open-minded: yes
Arrogant: no
Persistant: -
Insecure: sometimes. 
Hungry: not atm.
Smart: Yes, in my own personal way 
Moody: A bit tired 
Hard working: Yes, when i need to. 
Resiliant: -
Organized: Yes, i have cleaning problems xD
Healthy: Well im trying to get healthier now ^^
Difficult: -
Bored easily: nah
Obsessed: yes
Angry: no
Sad: depens
Happy: yes
Hyper: Well almost everyday xD
Trusting: yes

 

Just want to say congratulation to Gerard and Lynz. They´re gonna be such great parents to this gorgeous child of them. Im so excited for new photos of the lovley baby. It´s a girl and i think Bandit sounds like a boys name, so i thought it was a boy. But still the name is really cool, heard its some old German name, or something in that direction. Here is some words from Mikey and Alicia Way.

 

 

Mikey: Congrats to my friends Gerard and Lindsey who are first time parents as of 2:57pm PST. Welcome Bandit Lee Way...! You are such a Blessing!!

 

 

Alicia:  Life rules. What an awesome day. Bandit has finally arrived, and she´s the basically, most amazing thing ever. I love our growing lil family!!

 

It´s so amazing to hear such cheerfull things! So friikiiiing happy for them! :3

They´ll be the coolest celebparents ever!

 

xoxo: Sandra

 

 

Norway was the winner of this years Eurovision Song contest! Congrats! I was cheering for them, the song was a real Fairytail ♥ They really deserved to win!

There where other songs that i also liked, and they where.

Russia with "Mamo" I really loved that song, it was so powerfull with emotion.

Then i also liked Iceland, and of course Finland, i can´t believe that they came on last place O.o There where plenty of other songs that sucked.

 

Here´s the song for Mamo.

She´s so beautiful ^^

 

 

 

 

Here´s the song for Fairytale.

 

 

 

 

He´s so cute :)

 

xoxo: Sandra

The number one spot goes to no one else then beautiful Gerard Way

No one can take he´s place ^^

The number 2 spot goes to Matt Shadows

 

(Just wow!!!) Love him <3 :)

Spot number 3 goes to Alex Turner

(He´s my special Monkey :3)

 

 

 

Spot number 4 goes to Corey Taylor

He actually looks really good. And that´s why i LOVE Slipknot, they where the masks because they don´t want peeps to judge them by their looks, and think that they are hawt and stuff, they want peeps to listen to their music not their faces.

(Well im really into slipknot now and i think Corey deserves spot number 3 :3 And Alex is on number 4 but i still love him and he´s delicious pop sicle did i spell correctly? ^^ )

 

 

Spot number 5 goes to Trace Cyrus

I´m a new Fan of Metro Station and i think they are great and have a cool sound, i LOVE Trace, he is so cool and uber cute x3 He looks like a friend of mine :D

Spot number 6 goes to Brendon Urie

 

Naw he looks so adorable :3

Brendon: Guess how many fingers i have =3 ^^

 

 

 

Spot number 7 goes to Billie Joe armstrong

 

 

 

Spot number 8 goes to Ville Valo

I don´t listen to HIM that much, but i gotta start, Like HELLO we are from the same country xD

 

Spot 9 goes to Patrick Stump

 

I´ve almost spoted listening to Fall out boy, i don´t know why. But i think im gonna start to listen to them again :D

 

 

xoxo: Sandra ^^ I had fun doing this :P

 

Hi Guys! I was going through some videos on youtube and found a couple of AWESOME one´s, this guy TLCook57 is the producer of the movies and he is playing some rolls in them like these ones.

 

"A little piece of heaven" With A7X This is seriously good stuff!

 

 

 

"Dancing Dead" Wich really don´t have any music video, but this A7X fan who is totally awesome made one, and you should probably take a look at it, it rocks!

 

 

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I think he is really talented and a awesome A7X fan!

 

We Meet Again

I ran through the dark forest as fast as u could, but i didn´t get anywhere. My legs where stuck as glue on the gravel road. I tried to scream, but i didn´t get a single word out. My throath was dry it burned. They where very close now, i could see they´re disapointed eyes shining through the dark night. They where so close now that i could feel they´re warm breath against my neck, i got goosbumbs all over my sick body. The most chocking thing was that i where incredablie scared, i´ve never been that scared before. My senses has always tried to block that feeling. I didn´t dare to meet they´re look in their eyes, their innocent eyes that i had stabbed out with a knife and fried it in a pan. I held my eyes closed meanwhile my tears were running down my cheeks, i sat my bloody hands over my ears. I woke up.

 

The pain was drilling into my head, i felt like screaming. Tears where dried on my cheeks. My eyes  smart a bit, i had been crying while i was asleep. I carefully sat up from the warm bed, my body was aching. I was sweating like a pig. I didn´t have a good night sleep. I didn´t see anything, it was totally dark in the room. I was reaching for the cord to the nightlight. I switched it on and i peered quickly. The strong shining light made my eyes smart even more. It felt like someone stubbed cigarettes in my eyes, as if they we`re ashtrays. I stretched and stood up then i walked with clumsy steps to the kitchen downstairs. I massaged my temples while i did a review of all that happened last night. I remembered the beautiful and pale face of the young guy. I also remembered that his name was Martin and he worked in a bar on the west side of New York. I felt unsure and dizzy, i shaked my head and tried to forget all about it. I still had this headache. I took a hard grip of the sink, i turned on the water and let the cold water run down my sweaty fingers.  I opened a white cupboard above me, still thinking of Martin. I swang a bit and reached for a glass on the top shelf. Then i filled it with water and took a sip, and kept swinging to the other cupboard that was by the kitchen door.

I muttered for myself as usual, while i pushed out the two last pain killers that were left in the box. I threw the empty box on the table next to me, and leaned against the bench. Every morning was the same for me, dreaming nightmares and waking up with blodshot eyes and headache. Suddenly, a flash came into my head. I quickly swalowed the pain killers and drank the last drops of water that was left in the bottom of the glass. The water extinguished the tiny bit of hate that was left inside of me. I breathed out carefully, but my thoughts still couldn`t let that poor missunderstood Martin go. I started again to regret the things i`ve done.

"You can´t stop now! We´ve just started."

It was the voice that stood by my side everytime i did the most brutal. The voice i listened so intense to. It was a very soft and jeering, you coulf distinguish if the voice was good or evil. It was definitely evil. It was like in a cartoon, there was a devil and an angel on each side of the shoulders of the confused main character. Always a fight between them. Who should he or she listen to? who had the most logical explanation? who was right? I had almost the same thing. There was a good voice that i tried to listen to, someone who said that i should stop and pull myself off the insanity. That voice was very gentle and calm, like an angels voice. I didn´t know who´s side i stood on. I wanted that they could solve the thing with a boxing match, but they didn´t.  I growled for myself and threw the glass violently that i held and squeezed a long time in the sink. The annoying slam that echoed in the apartment made me frustrated.

At moments like this, i used to feel like a japanese fighting fish. I had faught against my own reflection, that always had been the evil side. I lost, just as i always did. I sobbed and looked out the kitchen window. My green curtains hanged lifeless at the sides. I felt like burning them, here and now.

"Patience" i whispered and looked out once again. It was dark outside, the moon was the only thing shining at the cold morning. I turned around and glanced at the digital watch on the microwave. It was 07:00 am. I had time on me, my work started 8:30 am and i had no rush at all.

I jumped fast in the shower and let the warm wather heal my damaged body. I felt like a new person when i stept out. I dressed myself in the bedroom, a pair of dark jeans, my favorite shirt that was white as snow, and to top it all a black vest. It had been laying on the closet floor filled with dust, and this was the first time i wore it, it was actually brand new. I stept inside the bathroom again, i took a look at myself in the mirror, my eyes were really red. I had been sitting and rubbing them too much. With a bit of powder, then no one will notice a thing. I wouldn`t look as half as psycho that i actually was. I took out the brush from the drawer. I brushed my hair determined. I sat my hair up in a horsetail. I walked back to the stuffy bedroom with wet socks. ( I was too lazy to wipe of the floor after shower.) I opened one of the drews on the table next to my bed. I pulled out my red glasses, i sat them on and walked to the window. It was two rather big windows at the sides, and a small one on the middle of the wall. I opened the small one and let the air flow in.

I picked up a little dirty laundry from the floor and took it downstairs to the laundry room, wich was in the kitchen, not literally, but it was a tiny room next to. To get there, you had to go through the kitchen. I threw the laundry in to the rusty washmachine and turned it on. Then, i brewed coffee and drank it slowly. The scent was unbelievebly delightful. I tried to enjoy it as good as i could, but i couldn`t. I glanced again the the digital watch, and saw that it was 08.05.

"Dammit!" i cursed and laid the coffe cup on the sink. I pulled out the black jacket from the coat hanger and took it on. Then i pulled to myself the purse that was lying on the hall table. As usual i had to run downstairs them small stairs. The elevator was broken and it has been that, since i moved to the building about 5 years ago. But there was nothing to complain about, really. No one would ever fix it anyway. The stairs were actually quicker at this moment. I came out to the cold fall morning, it was sunrise. The sky had a beautiful shade of orange and red. The wind blew strong, my glasses glide down my nose, i pulled them up again and started to march forward. The day seemed to be sunny but it was nothing i could take pleasure in anyhow. Trapped in an office til 6 pm, depending if i`ll finish sooner, i hope that. I was kicking small rocks as i hummed a song that was stuck in my head. It would take 10 minutes to job, with the subway from there it`d take 5 minutes to the office but it depended.

I took some big steps, past some teenage boys whom wissled and gave me filthy comments. I sobbed and tried to understand them. They were just a pair of stupid kids, who had no idea of what expected them. But i wasn`t stupid enough to hurt children, i still had one piece left of my ripped heart. I`d love to keep that tiny bit i had left. But as curious as i was. I asked myself.

"Who teaches them all of these?" I happened to say it out loud. I hoped nobody heard me. While i tried to forget about the akward thing i said, i got an answer.

"Maybe their parents" said a rough, but still very nice voice. I turned around, chocked and saw a man, about 25-30 years old walk behind me. He had rather pale skin and the coal black hair made him look even paler. He had a scar on his left cheek under his eye, wich i couldn´t see so good because of the black sun glasses he was wearing. He smiled and showed his white teeth. I blushed and smiled back quickly. I felt ridicilous. My big head and my big mouth always ruins everything, i think too much. The subway was now a couple of metres away from me. What should i say? I tried to figure out a smart answer.

"Then i feel sorry for them, and not only for the youngsters" I didn´t sound as smart as i thought. I held my breath and waited for an answer, but i didn´t get any. I kept going to the subway, i didn´t dare to turn my back. What if he still followed me and thought i was some kind of fool who wanted a larger conversation? He maybe thought that one answer would be enough. It was really locked up in the train when i arrived, people pushed each other forward. It smelled urine and alcohol. The claustrophobia started to crawl upon me. but, fortunately, it was a free seat next to an old man with a stick. I rushed to the seat and sat me down. The old man smiled at me, with his warm brown eyes. They looked like chocolate. Thinking of food made me hungry, thinking of meat made me insane. I had to hunt tonight.

I looked down to my Hello Kitty watch. Even if i looked childish in it, i never felt like i was. I´ve had this watch for some years and it had been in good shape, now that i think about. I researched my watch a bit, it was no scratches at all. why throw something that works? It was 08:18, i could never make it in time. The train began to slow down, people went out and in through the silverish glassdoors. I jumped up from my seat and hurried out. It didn´t blow with the same strenght anymore, it was easier to breath. I kept going along the small street, i catched a glimpse of the high building. The office was almost in the centrum of New York City. I ran the last bit to the gate. I stepped inside, the warmth almost hit me over, it was a great feeling. there was swarming office workers, they were speaking in cellphones and talked to each other while they all pushed themselvs into the elevators that were almost full.

I started to walk to the nearest elevator next to the expedition. The service girl was young, she looked like some girl from a teenage movie. She was chewing gum and blowing pink bubbles at each third second. She had ice blonde hair, you could see it was dyed from a long distance. Her shoulderlong hair was up in two horsetails, she looked ridicilous childish and unprofessional. She glanced at me while she filed her pink nails. I felt like pushing down the chewing gum down her troath with the file after. I looked annoyed at her, she looked away. I rolled my eyes and sobbed.

The elevator opened it was empty. Everybody had started to work expect for me.  I pushed on button 8, that was the floor i worked in.It felt like i was staying in the elevator for three years insted for three minutes. The slow elevator music made me mad, i kicked violently at the elevator door and at that moment the doors opened slowly. I looked around me. Not life catched. I walked out and stood infront of "The Truth" it was the magazine i worked for. We get stories from people all over the USA. The magazine writes for the most parts the truth about the society. You write you´re opotions. We get alot of questions that we answer to, the most people are happy about it, and some aren´t. The Truth had gotten 5 starts from New York time for the most read magazine. I work with answering the big questions, it´s a job i really enjoy, i love writting it´s one of my passions. People actually listen to me, not like some others that only annoy me. I stepped inside the door, there sat office workers working in they´re small benches. For three years ago when i started working in The Truth i also sat in one of the small benches, but through the years ive gotten a better place, i layed whole my sould to my work. I walked and peeped at the workers, no one of them even looked at my direction. I was like a ghost to them. I sobbed heavy and kept going to my own office that layed at the very back of the huge office. I walked in and closed the door after me. I breathe out, Liz wasn´t there yet with the news for the day. I started to take off my jacket slowly and hanged it on the coat hanger near the door. Then i threw my purse on one of the chairs next to. My office was like a second home to me, maybe even a better home then my real. The room was very open with large windows with view over New York, you could see a glimt of the statue of liberty. The walls where creme´ brown with huge paintings on the walls. The floor was almost as brown as the walls, it was covered by a rather big beige rugg. Most of the things in the office was decorated in tree, it had a 1800s feeling over it. It was here where i could isolate myself from the panic from the world outside. I sat down at my desk and turned on the computer. It was unusual fast today. It knocked suddenly on the door. It didn´t surprise me.

"Come in" I said and rested my chin on my hands.

The door opened and Liz stepped inside, she was wearing a blue blouse and a pair of white jeans, her short blonde hair was up with hairpins. She was carrying pappers what she then threw infront of me.

"News of the day" She said happy, she shined of happiness.  How can she? It only makes me frustrated to even think happy. I smirked and nodded without saying a word. 

"So how was you´re weekend?" She asked wondered while she sat on one of the chairs.

"The same old" I leaned now to my chair.

"Oh" She sobbed.

I knew what that ment, i tried as good as i could. But i wasn´t the kind of person who smiled and talked all the time. I wasn´t like everbody else.

"How was you´re weekend then?" I asked and smirked again.

Liz shined up and stod up from the chair, she talked while she walked pass the room.

"Wonderful!" She said enthusiastic. She shined really of happines. she kept talking and jumping around the office, i didn´t even listen to the half of the thing she was talking about, not that im beeing impolate, but my thoughts where somewhere else. I thought of him, but in real i also hated him. I hate all men, they are filthy and horrible.

"Are you even listening to what im saying?" Liz stoped jumping around and stood now infront of my desk with her arms resting on her hips.

"Oh, im sorry, i was thinking of something else" I muttered and looked innocent at her.

"Continue" I said.

She smiled once again and started to tell about her weekend, she had meet this guy, who she insanily fell in love with. He was perfect in her eyes.

"Nobody is perfect" I muttered.

"Excuse me?" Said Liz and turned around from the paintings.

"Nothing" I said quickly and continued drawning on a piece of paper. Then she continued talking about her crush. They had meet on a cafe´. I wanted to end this conversation.

"Liz?" I said and tried to smile a big smile as possible, but it didn´t go nowhere.

"Isn´t it wonderful?!" She said dancing.

"Yeah of course it is, but i think we have to work now, the clock is ticking,  and our duddies doesn´t do by theirselfs." I looked up at her with big eyes. Liz stoped infront of me and smiled one of her big smiles.

"Yes, it´s true, but thanks for listening" She leaped out from the room, but before she closed the door behind her, she turned around.

"You´re a real friend" She said and winked with her eye, then she closed the door.

Real friend, i wasn´t no ones friend. If i had real friends then they should have known who i really was, they had no clue. I looked around the pappers Liz gave me, it wasn´t that much as it is the other days. Then i´ll probably come home sooner. I smiled for myself and started to write. I answered curious peoples questions about the society. I answered as honest i could. It was actually my opotions. I stoped writting and cracked my fingers. I had already writting number of pages before 10:30. I stretched my back a bit and stod up from the black leather chair. It was lunchtime. I wasn´t as hungry as i was before, but a cup of coffee would be nice. I have to take the elevator to the 5th floor just to get some coffee. The cafeteria was on the 5th floor, if you wanted to eat a real meal then you should go to the first floor. But i didn´t want to push other people there, the first floor was always full of people. I had always tried to avoid to go downstairs. I was content if i only got some coffee and that was what the 5th floor was for. I walked with long steps to the elevators, everyone had gone for lunch. I was last as always. There where no one at the elevators. I pushed the elevator button til all blood in my finger collected on my fingertip. The doors to the elevator opened and there he stood again. I couldn´t move, my legs where almost paralysed.

"Are you coming in?" He asked polited.

"Yes" I hawked. I stepped inside with slow steps. I leaned against the wall. It was a imbarrasing moment.

"It´s the people i assume" He suddenly said.

"Excuse me?" I understood what he was talking about, but still not really. I glanced at him a bit surprised. He hawked and smiled a bit. He looked at the elevator doors then he turned his head against me and look upon me. 

"I assume it´s the people, who learn you such words, those you hang out with."

It was not when i noticed that his eyes where dark green, something you could drown in. I also noticed that he was really handsome, he was wearing a pair of black jeans and a light grey shirt. He had been waiting for an answer too long.

"I think it is" I said blushing. What´s happening to me? I should hate him! I tried to hold my anger inside of me. I just wished that the elevator doors would open, i didn´t want to hurt him, but still i really wanted to. The doors oppened, i walked out qick. He walked after with a smile on he´s lips.

"I don´t even know where im going" He said giggling a bit and looking around. I had to calm down. He hasn´t done me any harm, just show him the way then you don´t have to talk with him ever again.

"Are you new here?" I asked after taking some deep breaths.

"Yes, i am actually" He´s answer was short.

"Where were you ahead?" We stood by the cafeteria door now, people went in and out. Most of the women walked by and looked with big eyes at the guy. They started whispering with each other. The guy just smiled polited at them.

"I was going to the big cafeteria, but i got confused, is this the big or the small one?" He looked at the door and wrinkled hes foorhead.

"This is the small one" I said and pointed. I tried to sound as polite as i could.

"I see, so the big one must be on the first floor?"

"Yes it is" I nodded.

"Hm, i think i´ll go to this small one insted, i heard rumors about the big one was always full with people." He smiled about the thought of it. I couldn´t help it and just to do the same.

"The rumors are true" I started to walk to the doors to the cafeteria, my work was done here.

"Thanks then" He shouted after me. I went with quick steps in, the guy of course walked after. When i came in it was pretty full with people. It was a couple of men sitting on one of the tables, they seemed to talk about the news for the day. Then i saw the service girl sitting with two other girls, they talked and laughed til they saw me. The service girl gave me a sharp look. As lucky for her she didn´t chew gum anymore, if she did at this moment, then i would have taken one of the knifes in the kitchen and stabbed her troath. But there where to many witness here, id probably had to kill them to.

The Cafeteria  where i was spending my time in wasn´t that big, maybe as big as a half school cafeteria. There was black benches in a row. The windows where big and open like all of the windows in the building. The walls where grey and boring. There where soda and candy machines standing against one of the walls. I got into the line, as unlucky as i was the guy stod next to me holding a tray. He looked curious at all the dishes that where served. I rolled my eyes and followed the lead.

I wasnt hungry as i said, so i only took a cup of coffee with extra sugar, then a banana. I sat down to the only empty table against one of the windows. I looked out while i took some sips of the coffee.

"Is this seat free?" It was the guy again. He looked at me blushing.

"Sure, it´s always free here" I looked away from him, i tried to look out instead. Put my thoughts somewhere else.

"Beautiful day isnt it?" He said and looked at me a bit curious.

I met he´s eyes and i nodded.

"You´re not a talker of you right?" I took a deep breath, ate the last bit of the banana and threw then the rest of the banana on the table.

"No, im not" I said determinded.

"You don´t eat that much either" He said looking down on my tray.

"Im not hungry" i muttered. I looked at him, he sat with arms crossed. He looked fascinated at me. I looked down on he´s tray and noticed that it was empty to.

"And shall you say" I said with a high voice.

"Im not hungry either" He smiled and looked out from the window.

I lift my eyebrown.

"Smart move" I said quietly.

He smirked and reached hes hand to me.

"By the way, my name is Anthony Blunt" I shaked hes hand, it was kinda cold but very soft.

"Hannah Hudson, nice meeting you Anthony" I said.

He smiled.

"The same Hannah."

"And welcome to The Truth" I said again.

"Thanks" He flashed he´s white and perfect teeth.

Somehow i couldn´t kill this guy i was still pretty unsure. i couldn´t trust him either. when i came back to the office i started with work imidetly. The conversation with Anthony wasn´t that long, i got so frustrated that i was complaning about the time. He understood and let me go. It was something about Anthony that i couldnt point out, maybe charming. I shut the computer and turned the light on my desk. I pulled my jacket on and took my purse. I closed my door behind me. I glanced at the elevator doors, should i take the chance? I did that. When the doors opened there stod no one else then Liz.

"Hi Hannah!" She waved.

"Hi" i said.

Now she´s gonna start talk about her crush, even if its pretty cute, but its still annoying.

"Are you going home?"

"Mm, yes i am. Where are you going?" I asked "curious"

"Im going to meet Matt! He´s gonna take me to a restaurang, isnt it romantic!?" She started to jump up and down again, you could feel the elevator shaking.

"Yes, it sounds really romantic"

I tried to sound happy, at least she´d had found someone. I´d never had any relationship with anybody. My Childhood had ruined the most of it, i thought men where afful.The elevator suddenly stoped on the 4th floor. Anthony stepped inside. Nothing surprised me really.

"Hi, so we meet again?" He smiled behind hes sunglasses.

"Hi, yes we do." I looked at Liz she was quiet, and it was odd.

"Who´s your´e friend Hannah?" she said suddenly, i looked at her with a highed eyebrown. She winked at me.

"He´s not my friend." I said determinded.

"Anthony blunt, and whats your name?" He reached his hand infont of me to shake it with Liz.

"Liz, only Liz." She giggled and shaked hes hand.

"Beautiful name you have" He smiled now arms behind hes back.

I subbed and walked out from the elevator that just opened.

"What´s wrong with her?" Liz asked Anthony when they both stepped out the same time.

"She´s just a little shy" Said Anthony with high voice so i could hear it. I started to walk quicker, far away from them.

"See you Hannah!" Anthony Shouted before i walked from their sight.

 

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FINALY!

I´m done with the translatin, it took over 3 hours! Insane, i did my best, im not worlds best translater, i hope you understand ^^ And please read it, id love to hear your comments about Chapter 2. I have so much going on in my head, so much ideas. If you guys only knew, i actually am really proud over this story. And i took the name Matt from Matt Shadows ^^ I couldnt help it, i love the man, he is insane! And i took Anthony from Frank´s second name that is Anthony :) And i know it´s really LONG! But it´s a book im writting and this is actually only chapter 2.

 

xoxo: Sandra

Im writting a book, many as you doesnt know that. it´s called Cannibal Hannah, and its about a woman who is taking her revenge on men, it´s a long story, so if you are interested read the chapters im gonna upload. I had upload Chapter 1 already, but its not that much story in it, just a small thing i wrote maybe one page. But chapter 2 is 10 pages, so im going to upload it here on Buzznet very soon, but it takes time to translate it from Swedish to English, i need patience because im so hyper right now, i want to upload it as fast as possible. I really want to know what you guys think of it, so i can write more, and who knows maybe my book gets famous and maybe it will become a movie some day, and i actually wish that.

I have already google around celebreties that would fit as the main characters.

 
Cannibal Hannah would be played by Christina Ricci, i think she is perfect! She has this pure evil over her face, but she can be a real sweeatheart to, and i like her, she has that Cannibal Hannah look over her.

 

Because i haven´t been able to upload Chapter 2 yet, you havent heard of an other main character, that happens to be a man. Okay i just had to do this and it isnt my fault, hes name is Anthony blunt and i got inspiration of Gerard. Anthony is  looking like Gerard, but he dont have hes personality, im sorry i just had that in my mind all the time, i wanted to create a character that reminds me of Gerard because of some reason, and i wont tell it because its a secret so read if you want to find out the reason. Well there is plenty of reasons but this is a huge one. So i didnt know wich actor to play Anthony because he is so much like Gerard, maybe i should ask Gerard if he could play him ^^ Well there is just one i thought could play Anthony and it is Josh Hartnett, i don´t know why i choosed him, but he was the best suited for the character, except for Gerard of course :) But im not 100% yet if Josh plays Anthony. Just something i thought over, im really confused right now xD

After you might read chapter 2, (please do it, i need support and fans xD) so might you guys could get me some recomendation of some actor that could play the roles of the characters. That would be good help.

xoxo: Sandra

Now im again obsessed by writting journals ^^

 

Okay im a bit bored to =3

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Okay now im gonna write about something.

I just woke up, a bit confused *where am i?* Wearing my jackass t-shirt, it´s actually almost as a pyjamas for me ^^ Haven´t eaten yet, im pretty hungry. *Tummy* *Im starving!!* It´s a beautiful sunny morning, (Well it´s not actually morning, i woke up middle of the day, but still let me enjoy this) Im thinking of hanging outside with my buddy, if she just answers my textmessages! I hate slow motion people *Gosh!* Maybe trying to fix myself that i look like a human bean again, (I look like some fake monster from scooby doo) Wrote a typical message on Twitter, "just woke up realasing that school starts tomorrow, bummer in a good way" something like that. And yes and true school starts tomorrow for me and the rest of the Swedish kids ^^  I think thats my day, look how boring i am, no life at all xD

 

xoxo: Sandra

 

 

Heres what i was obsessed about

 

Am i the only one who had gone through this?

Now im talking about a real thing. I remember when i was crazy obsessed by Mr Way (Love calling him that) The only guy i was thinking about was him, Gerard was insaily stuck in my head, and i couldnt do anything about it. I was obsessed! I unliked he´s wife for no reason, yes one reason actually, i was so stupid that i believed in all the rumors about her, and that´s something you don´t listen to! Now my eyes are wide open, i like LynZ she is cool and deserves Gerard they are madly in love and having a baby this summer! Why in earth are people so jealous, why hate somebody that you don´t know nothing about. Somebody you´d never met. Why spend time on beeing that? It´s not that you have a chance on him or her. Nothing is impossible i know that, but this is different he is married with an wonderfull woman who is expecting hes baby. Im confessing something and it´s true. I think i was so confused at these moments.

  I don´t think its healthy beeing that mad obsessed by a celebrety, it isnt really any life. And saying that you LOVE him, it isnt true, you don´t love him, like love LOVE! This is something that my best friend said to. When i was in love with a guy friend, and it was actually the first time i was in love. I forgot everything about Gerard, he wasnt in my head anymore, i thought alot about it after loosing this guy friend as a crush to. And after that i don´t think Gerard in that way anymore, i lost all of it. I love him more as an idol he is my inspiration. Now i just stoped with everything. I looked at myself in the mirror. I have to find true love, this isnt any life for me. I look up to him alot, and i dont excpect that much of him, he is infact a human bean and not any perfect robot that most people think, and that drives me crazy! Sorry back to the subject.

 

So after loosing the feelings for this guy friend i figured out, i wasnt in love with Gerard, i was a highly obsessed person who couldnt find true love yet, who couldnt find myself. So this is something for all the girls and guys who feel lost. You are not in love with him or her, you will find real love and forget all the romance between you and ur celebretie.

Of course you can still be a good fan and love him or her, but not in that crazy way anymore.

God what i feel good now, writting all of this to you guys, i hope you understand what im meaning.

 

Sorry for miss spelling :3

I still love you G-Way AS my idol ^^

It´s not always wrong beeing obsessed.

Thanks for all the support!

xoxoSandra

 

Well Actually song[s] of the day, i can neved decide just ONE song.

Here we go

Shake it - Metro Station

Down with the sickness - Disturbed

Almost Easy - Avenged Sevenfold

Desolation Row - My Chemical Romance

Spit it out - Slipknot

 

Im so bored ^^

!HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERARD ARTHUR LEE WAY!

 

Gerard turning 32 today!

9th april 1977 was a special man born, who celebrates he´s 32th B-day today, this man is the vocalist of a special band who safes lifes. This man who doesn´t care what others thinks of him. The band wich write the most beautiful lyrics, and the most beautiful music .This beautiful man is Gerard Way and this amazing band is My Chemical Romance!

I´d like to congratulate him on his day! He deserves a mayor Cheer! 
Hipp Hipp Hurray!
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Hipp Hipp Hurray!



PS: And id also like to congrat Kristen Stewart, it´s her B-day today to.